I know it’s been a long time since I’ve just written a post and I’m sorry about that. I did like being able to write down my thoughts as they came to me and hopefully I’ll be doing that more often from now on. I’m planning on writing a post a week where I can talk directly to you and a short story once every two weeks. But what do I know, really? Things just tend to happen.
Lately, though, I’ve been struggling with what I want to do with my life. As an extension of that I find myself thinking about the person I want to be. People tend to think of themselves as an amalgamation of what they do with their time, and while I don’t think that that is necessarily the best way to look at life, it is true that what you do certainly has an impact on how you view yourself as a person. Therefore, it’s pretty damn important to spend your time doing something that you like and that you won’t necessarily regret as the years go by.
Now this logic works but even once you accept it it’s very hard to apply it to yourself. Like everyone else I find myself fearing my dreams. Otherwise they wouldn’t be dreams, they’d be easily achieved goals. No, my dreams rise up like seemingly unscalable cliffs and too often my fear stops me from even starting to climb. I think I’m scared most of all that I’ll fail and the person I’ll become won’t be someone that my younger self would have been proud of.
Deep down though I know I have to change the way I think. In a speech my grandfather once gave he said that the most important part of accomplishing something is knowing exactly what it is that you want to achieve. I know that this holds true in all aspects of life. By realising what it is I want to do, I can start trying to make my dreams for my future a reality.
Ralph Waldo Emerson is often quoted in saying that “The person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be” and while I’m not sure I approve of the simplification of ideas into easily understandable quotes, I really liked this one and so it’ll have to stand alone here. What I really need to do now, and what I think a lot of people need to do in order to find happiness, is to get a grasp of what it is I really want to achieve with my life. Once you have decided who you want to be you can figure out what you want to do in order to become that person. From there on it’s all a matter of breaking things down into manageable chunks and from there into realisable actions. Soon you’ll find yourself doing something every day that brings you closer to your goal, that brings you closer to becoming the person you want to be. In the end that’s all you can really do.
Anyway take that as you will. Just to say that I’ll try to write more often now and I hope you keep on reading.